(Words) 12/10/05 X The Ghost of Perfection vs. Don't Quit.... ~ Thoughts of A Predicate Lifer

(Words) 12/10/05 X The Ghost of Perfection vs. Don't Quit....

!2/10/05... Well now it is the 11th and seven years ago, I was still sleep at this time. Having partied for a good portion of the night at my wedding reception with a few close friends. Seven years later, I am sitting here awake. Not really wondering 'What if' so much...not even wondering 'why'. Just sitting here wondering....

Reflecting
Laughing
Crying
Sometimes feeling everything.
Sometimes feeling numb.
I thought it was the 'day' that would be tough. @ anniversary. I don't know anymore though... Just don't know...They are all pretty damm tough for their own reasons..

The lead photo is a piece that hung prominently around my home and in her office. It is a nice piece too. Succinct. To the point. Good message. Very positive.

Imagine though, if you will, that you didn't have that switch that allowed you to actually execute that? That, despite being wildly successful, your need for perfection is parched. Unfulfilled. A World where everyone is telling you that you are 'the shit' but you pretty much feel because you didn't get XYZ done, you are but a stain....

Imagine taking 'not resting on your laurels' to the tenth power. Truly not understanding that not DOING EVERYTHING ISN'T quitting at all. It is merely NOT DOING EVERYTHING. Imagine being able to tell EVERYONE ELSE THAT and making sure they do that but failing MISERABLY and doing that for yourself.

Now imagine having that switch and getting mad at yourself for failing to do the last paragraph...

See the dilemma now?

You would be at yourself coming and going. One for not achieving the lofty (and attainable to you since you are perfect or strive to be) goals and then EQUALLY mad (and thus making things even more maddening) at yourself for not being able to rationally think 'It is okay.. I did my best.. Things worked out well.. I'm good'.

If you got all of that then maybe you 'understand' more than you think....

Now imagine someone watching someone else EAT THEMSELVES ALIVE with this battle. Day...after...day....after day.

Imagine my underlying feelings for that piece then once you look at it in that fashion.

Finding evil in good since 1973... @ me.. smh

Good intentions..more fuel to the fire...

Silver lining. I found out running this makes me eligible for some things that will benefit my family. Who knew a simple business license would do so much? Really good news on that front. I had to go back to my old job to handle that and to my surprise JUST ABOUT EVERYONE I KNEW HAD MY WIFE'S OBIT in their cubicle. Mind you, I haven't seen them in 6 years.... Hadn't talk to ANYONE there. They were surprised to see me and their reception really did help.

Prayers and thoughts are helping.. In case you are wondering.

Support

Let me be clear. I need you to SUPPORT the artist whose music you see/hear in the music player here. Some of them are my FRIENDS!! I want them to make money. So while I may put up a link here or there that they didn't 'endorse', it is only out of the love for their music and the fact that I want you to SUPPORT THEM. So please do. Seek out their music. Some of them are VASTLY UNDERRATED and your FAVORITE MUSICIAN loves them. So it isn't 'talent'. It is exposure. Which is all I am trying to give them here.. SO SUPPORT THEM!!!

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I post 'em up ON THE REG. I post 'em, pay the compliments I want to when necessary and leave it at that. Period. If you happen to be the 'man in the young lady's life', don't worry dawg, I don't want your woman. I'm good.

If the fact that I do post up women means that you don't 'respect' any serious topic I discuss then your 'Fuck You and your respect ' is in the link below...Go ahead and read it....I think that should about cover how I feel about what 'you think'..

http://thewarehous.blogspot.com/2011/01/shoot-messengermiss-entire-fuck-outta.html

As for the 'woman' who are afraid of being 'exploited' by a site like the one I run here..Or who feel like I 'stole' your pics or something along those lines.. I have addressed you as well...

http://thewarehous.blogspot.com/2011/07/so-i-guess-i-have-to-be-bad-guy-it-isnt.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A%20blogspot%2FrDZx%20%28The%20WareHouse%29

I do occasionally interview folks so browse around. I don't call them interviews though. I call 'em 'Chats' 'cause that is usually what is like. Not claiming to be some CNN reporter over here. Just asking questions that many of us want answers to and some questions that some of you don't THINK TO ASK OR THINK CERTAIN FOLKS ARE GOING THROUGH/THINKING ABOUT/DOING. I like to dig deep so if you agree to an interview, be prepared. I might ask you anything. I probably will stay away from the majority of the 'standard' questions though. Just bare that in mind. Again..the site's official email is thewarehouseblogspot@gmail.com if you would like to be interviewed. Hit me up.

The popular posts usually contain enough POSITIVE examples of how this works great for both THE BLOG and the subjects of the posts. Usually, those post are a DIRECT RESULT of support from the young lady via a posting on THEIR OWN TWITTER, blog or Facebook. So thank you for that IN ADVANCE (and if you have done so in the past..) for that mutual support. It is appreciated. Truly.

Oh and one more thing...

I DON'T WATER MARK PICTURES THAT I DIDN'T EITHER TAKE OR WERE NOT ORIGINALLY GIVEN TO ME. I have seen folks RUSH TO DO IT and it is pretty damm sad. Not my style. I am not a fool. I know that most of what I do in regards to pictures can be replicated so there is no need to act like I'm out here doing more than what it is. I provide a space to see a collection of pictures in that regard. Nothing more. Nothing less. Watermarking pictures that aren't 'mine per say kinda comes off a little pompous to me. That's just me though..

I want you to be able to tell when I do TAKE THE PICTURE without me saying as much. What do I look like watermarking your pictures up if I didn't 'take them'?

You see the watermark on a picture here with the blog's name in it? Then you know I took the picture in some fashion. Screen shot. With the camera phone. With the Canon or the web cam. Or it was given to me for exclusive use. (At least at press time)

Thoughts of A Predicate Lifer